I have received a request to inform you "how it's going". I'm not sure what exactly I'm supposed to be talking about, so I'm going to use this as an excuse to rant on about my boring life!

I have less than a week to lose some weight before a party I'm going to, and anyone with a microgram of brains knows that's not really possible. So, for that reason I am cranky. Also I think the guy I like is bored of me. So, for that reason also, I am cranky. Good all round, then, I hear you cry.

There is however a glimmer of hope on the horizon - I went to Reading University open day yesterday, and I think I've found the perfect place to study Microbiology! They've been doing Microbiology longer than any other university in the country, they've got a really good first year involving lots of core biological subjects like cell biology, biochemistry, etc. allowing you to diversify, and later specialise with more knowledge of different areas than you did before. Plus their Humanities building is right next to the Animal and Microbial Sciences building, so my mate Kerry and I will be near one another. Yay!

NO MORE EXAMS!!!!!

ZONINO!!!!

I am at last free from the vile bonds of revision, however I do have a singing exam on the 21st June, which is bringing me down a bit from my Yeung's-induced high (for those of you overseas, or just not of Faversham Kent, Yeung's is a Chinese restaurant which has all-you-can-eat buffets for just £10!! and for me that's a lot of food... however today I've been feeling not very hungry).

I did R.S this afternoon, and I am officially free and single until Tuesday, when I have to go back to school and start Yr13 work. Whoop-di-doo. We have to carry on all four A-Levels until we get our results, and I'm starting to think I've failed all of them!!! But at least they're over!!!! At any rate that's what I've been telling myself...

So yes, latest on the guy front is: nothing. Since my Chemistry exam on Wednesday morning I haven't seen him, although we have been texting a bit. Although I've been trying not to distract him too much (although I give myself a bit too much credit there *sheepish grin*) cos his exams are only just starting really. But hey, if he doesn't like me, he's leaving anyway! For Cambridge! Which is far away! Although that's a bit screwy if he does like me, cos then he's leaving  for Cambridge, which is far away. Miserable.

Biology is evil!!! Pure EVIL!!!! Don't do biology unless you are secure in the knowledge that you can promise to yourself you will work incredibly hard from day 1, cos you can't just pick it up somewhere along the way and hope for the best. I did that, and I think I may have just failed AS Level Biology.

Chemistry on Wednesday, then R.S Thursday afternoon. Yay.

Plus, Kerry (my friend, you probably don't know her - if you do, say hi) has been teasing me! The sweet guy I mentioned before? He's leaving this year for uni (Cambridge, medicine - don't say I don't know how to pick a good'un!) and I thought I'd lost my chance to tell him how I feel. Well he's having a birthday bash on 1st July and I'm invited! Kerry told me, that minx. I'm not supposed to know yet apparently, and today she texted me saying "You've got a surprise coming..." and I don't know what she could mean!!! It's probably about something to do with her love life, hers has always been more interesting than mine! lol

Anyways bye, I should probably be doing some revision... Nah. Can't be arsed.

I've neglected you all rather badly, I must say. I'm terribly sorry! Life has taken a rather depressing downward-spiralling trend for me, you know. I wrote an entry a while ago about someone who I cared for very much, and still do care for. Well feelings for him have resurfaced. Whoop-di-doo. Also I have become worrying fond of one of our esteemed Deputy Head boys (not the new lot, although the guy I mentioned previously is one of them, the ones from last year) who had his car crashed into recently? I'm sure you all know who I mean (unless you don't go to my school...). So yeah, that's been weighing heavy on my mind. Do I try again with the guy who I think I'm in love with but who has rejected me already? Or do I try with the guy who is really sweet, who hasn't yet rejected me? And if I do try with the guy who's really sweet but who I don't think I'm in love with, will I hurt him? Will I hurt both of us?

As well as the joys of adolescence, I have AS-levels coming up - already done General Studies Unit 3 Social Perspectives (which was shit) and I've got another Gen Studies next Monday, with Pyschology Units 2&3 on Thursday. I then have half term! which my mother promises to make a fun-filled week of almost solid revision. Yay *cheers weakly*. After that on the Monday back it's Biology Units 2&3 in the morning, then Wednesday it's Chemistry Units 2&3B in the morning, and the following day Religious Studies in the afternoon. So my life is fraught with many worries right now.

The biggest of which was my neglect of my lovely friends here on 20six.co.uk!!! I hope you can all forgive me. The only benefit is that now I have a nice lot to catch up on, and we all have interesting things to talk about!

Please, leave comments - I've missed you all so

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I forgot you!!!!!!! I'm so sorry

belated love and sensual hugs wing their way across the atlantic to you, my lover

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Valentine's day is so depressing, don't you agree? Especially when you're unfortunate enough to be yearning for someone who is in fact going out with a friend of yours! Sucks, doesn't it. Well my life just keeps getting better and better. No entries recently because our downstairs study (where the computer and piano are) got flooded, so we couldn't have the computer down here for AGES. Now it's sitting on a tray on the floor - so all is well enough. Anyone else not with anyone for Valentine's? How about we all pretend we're going out with a gorgeous celebrity - me bagsy Johnny Depp !

Have a great day tomorrow all you happily-in-a-relationship people. I hope those roses he/she gives you don't prick your finger and make you sleep for a hundred years, because that would be SO sad. Then you might get accidentally killed in a tragic house fire and might burn forever in the fiery pits of hell. Or might find that there is in fact no afterlife, so everyone you've ever loved will never EVER see you again. Ever.

Anypook, Happy Valentine's Day you bunch of losers. I personally think that celebrating true love and being cared for by someone you also love and cherish by exchanging symbols of that love is the height of tackiness. Just dump 'em and go out and pull someone and have meaningless sex. That's what I'd do. In fact, that's what I will do! Brilliant idea, Tintin!